i am creating too much stress for myself.. and this stress is killing me.. i dunno why and i dunno how can this happened.. my anger reach to the max and i am trying to keep it.. it's like a bottle.. and i am filling and compressing massive amount of stress in to the bottle.. and force the bottle not to burst.. it's very very suffering.. it's killing me.. shit~~~ i feel like banging my head to the wall.. punch the wall.. smash some stuff.. go crazy....!!!! arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!